taught, just a tot

I lost my temper again and had to write an amends letter.   I own my mistake. and yes, I need to grow up. to drive out there or not.  Boundaries are okay.  another string broke.  I called and he said wait until a few break and then order all at once.  Executive conflict resolution just happened to be in the building.

anxiety be gone!!  Cloud

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it’s just a story

that you tell yourself, but you can change the story.  You can even market the story and help people.

 Thank U

If you are experiencing lack in your life, it’s because you are not appreciating what you have.  Play the appreciation game today.

 Why?  Because I want freedom: to travel, to buy what I want, to help others including family members, friends, others.  to express myself creatively. to heal you from your pain because I know what that pain feels like.

Innercise for Discovering Your Money Blocks

1. Take 6 long, slow, deep breaths. Feel yourself becoming completely relaxed.

2. Now, one at a time, say the following affirmations to yourself and feel your natural response to each idea. Be completely open, and let your thoughts flow freely. As you read each affirmation, pay close attention to how it makes you feel. Ready?

  • I fully resonate with earning a lot of money.
  • Whatever obstacle is in my way, I easily figure out a way around it.
  • Money flows to me, from known and unknown sources.
  • I feel so proud and confident that I am earning all the money I deserve
  • I have all of the power within me, right now, to earn as much money as I choose.
  • Making money is so much fun for me.
  • I deserve to earn all of the money I want.
  • I am certain in my abilities to double or triple my income.

3. Make a note of the affirmations that caused you to feel the most resistance when you read them. Can you think of times in your life where this resistance held you back?

Now that you know where one or two of your money blocks are, you’ll start to notice when they show up. Realize that it’s just a story, and you can choose to believe it, or not.


Cancer Survivor, me too!


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Harp came

the harp came. I got it up the stairs, with help of truck guy and neighbor.

then friend came and we got it in, and now it’s in my room. Need to tune it.  pictures forthcoming, this is a work in progress.


oh, and where did we put the box?

  this could be someone’s house, or at least their room!


I already broke a string.


fixed string. played. Google video.


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falling into masterpiece and Hallelujah anyways

“You lose your grip — and then you fall into the masterpiece.” ~ Leonard Cohen, A Thousand Kisses Deep #RebelleSociety

“You lose your grip — and then you fall into the masterpiece.” ~ Leonard Cohen, A Thousand Kisses Deep #RebelleSociety

Jonah: 4

 But to Jonah this seemed very wrong, and he became angry. He prayed to the Lord, “Isn’t this what I said, Lord, when I was still at home? That is what I tried to forestall by fleeing to Tarshish. I knew that you are a gracious and compassionate God, slow to anger and abounding in love, a God who relents from sending calamity. Now, Lord, take away my life, for it is better for me to die than to live.”

But the Lord replied, “Is it right for you to be angry?”

Jonah had gone out and sat down at a place east of the city. There he made himself a shelter, sat in its shade and waited to see what would happen to the city. Then the Lord God provided a leafy plant[a] and made it grow up over Jonah to give shade for his head to ease his discomfort, and Jonah was very happy about the plant. But at dawn the next day God provided a worm, which chewed the plant so that it withered. When the sun rose, God provided a scorching east wind, and the sun blazed on Jonah’s head so that he grew faint. He wanted to die,and said, “It would be better for me to die than to live.”

But God said to Jonah, “Is it right for you to be angry about the plant?”

“It is,” he said. “And I’m so angry I wish I were dead.”

10 But the Lord said, “You have been concerned about this plant, though you did not tend it or make it grow. It sprang up overnight and died overnight. 11 And should I not have concern for the great city of Nineveh,in which there are more than a hundred and twenty thousand people who cannot tell their right hand from their left—and also many animals?”


Jonah did the deal, but did he become the kind of person that god wanted him to be?

Napoleon Hill said desire is the starting point of all achievement. Not a hope, not a wish — but a keen pulsating desire which transcends everything, especially when committed to habit.

Whatever the one thing is for you, just do a little of it today. Just do a little today and a little tomorrow and make a decision that for one week you are going to do a little of this transformational practice.

Deep down you know it can completely transform, improve and better your life.

To Your Highest Good,


Are you afraid of failure?

I don’t know any successful person who isn’t. But I also do not know any successful person who has not failed more times than they can count. Failure is not the eternal damnation it is made out to be, it happens to everyone again and again. 

When you work on a worthy project, it can seem that the key piece is its eventual success, however you may define it. It has been my experience that this is not true. The key piece to any project is the authentic evolution that occurs for the contributors along the way

Who you and I become in the process of solving problems and completing projects is more important than if the work is completed successfully this time around or not. Every project is followed by yet another. Every problem is followed by yet another. That is how this world is designed. 

The purpose of this design cannot be the successful completion of projects or the flawless execution of your fine tuned plans. Its purpose is the ripening and maturation of people; the awakening of true wisdom, compassion, and skill in leaders like you who dare to take on the responsibility for worthy projects and problems. Even though you know that failure will likely occur again and again until you succeed. Even though you know there will always be new problems and projects to conquer after this one. 

When you experience true failure, the kind of failure that derails your self-image and destroys your pride, it let’s you realize that a successful life cannot be measured by how many projects you’ve successfully completed or by how many problems you’ve already solved. That is when you can realize what the late Leonard Cohen called falling into your masterpiece; the realization that who you are becoming in the process of your struggles, and your deep engagement with life, love and creativity, is in fact your only real work. Your legacy is not your completed projects or problems solved, your legacy is the person you’ve become along the way. 

I wish you the confidence to fall into your masterpiece, no matter what your track record in terms of projects and problems might currently look like, because if you do you are a success.

Consider letting yourself be shaped by life in the way that let’s the rest of us rejoice in the human being and the mindful leader you’ve become along the way.

Because that “you” is someone we’d all love to meet.


Soon, I will be offering you a unique opportunity to join me on an exciting new adventure toward leadership mastery and success. As our community of mindful leaders expands, we’d love to get to know you and grow in this work together. Stay tuned! 

To your mindful leadership,



I also read Anne Lamott’s Hallelujah anyways this morning.   Maps; to places, to childhoods, to your dreams and artistic expression. to you!

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Make or break yourself

Emmet Fox


The capriciousness of destiny was a favorite subject with the old-fashioned novelists. In their three volume world, people’s lives were at the mercy of trifling accidents from day to day. A person’s whole life was spoiled because one letter was stolen or went astray. The hero rose from obscurity to wealth and fame through meeting a casual stranger in a railroad car, or through saving someone from drowning at the seashore. One false step ruined an otherwise promising career. One tum of fortune’s wheel solved all problems for someone else. All this is nonsense. We are not at the mercy of accidents for there are no accidents, and trifles have only trifling effects. In the long run you demonstrate your character; and you cannot ultimately miss the mark for which you are fitted, because of any outer accident. A particular incident may give you a temporary advantage or cause you passing grief or inconvenience, but It does not change your life’s story. An energetic and enterprising man who attends to his business will make a success of his  life whether he meets a helpful stranger in a railroad car or not–and whether a particular letter concerning him is lost or not. The miscarriage of a letter may deprive him of a particular position; meeting with a helpful and influential stranger may bring his success a little sooner; but if he has the qualities demanded for success he will succeed in any case. And if he lacks those qualities  no help from the outside can make him successful.
No nation is destroyed by the loss of one battle. When a nation is weak in natural resources and divided within itself, it cannot stand; but it is this structural weakness that brings about its fall. If it were united, well organized, and armed, it could lose that battle and still. win the war. Your own character makes or breaks you. This is true of the individual, of a nation, of a party, of a church, or of any institution. 
If you seem to yourself to be lacking in certain necessary qualities, if your character seems to lack strength, ask God to give you what you need-and He Will. You can build any quality into your mentality by meditating upon that quality every day.

I love the library.

When others reject you, let God accept you.

what part of no did you not understand?

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Here comes the sun

All in a summer day by Ray Bradbury.

you won’t lock me up anymore bitch!

Pack Up + Go founder Lillian Rafson in Sedona, Arizona. (Courtesy of Lillian Rafson)  Photo Credit:

Pack Up + Go founder Lillian Rafson in Sedona, Arizona. (Courtesy of Lillian Rafson)

Program your brain to filter out the inner C.R.A.P. (Conflicts, Resistance, Anxiety and Problems) that are holding you back from your happiness and success.

Drank two tablespoons of apple cider vinegar.


God cares about every single part of you—spirit, soul and body! 3 John 2 says, “Beloved, I pray that in every way you may succeed and prosper and be in good health [physically], just as [I know] your soul prospers [spiritually]” (AMP). He wants you to have confidence in His desire to heal your soul so that you “prosper spiritually”


We are sure that God wants us to be happy, joyous and free.  I am so sorry for what I have done and for what was done to you.  Forgive me for the angry outburst that was based on fear and control.  I got hurt too, but that is no excuse.  I take responsibility and ask for forgiveness.  Whether you choose to forgive or not, is your issue.  I do not live my the false belief that because you do not forgive, I am not worthy.

Pray and ask God to help you accurately and honestly see where your heart is, especially in regard to your relationship with Him and then with the people in your life. Ask Him to help you see yourself the way He sees you and to understand how others feel when they are around you.  I need more compassion.

Psalm 51:6, 10 (AMP) says, “Behold, You desire truth in the innermost being, and in the hidden part [of my heart] You will make me know wisdom. Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right and steadfast spirit within me.”   I have done my part and I am trying to become a better person.


money flows to me because I treat it respectfully.


Write down what you want:  My own place, nature, the harp and playing it for others, money to travel, friends and love.  Support from others. A peaceful night’s sleep.  Imagine them manifesting: that you are worthy of having what you want.


Create affirmations.  That I do have the capability to earn a living and that I am worthy of a good career. I am a magnificent, powerful person and just because others do not forgive or see my greatness, doesn’t mean it doesn’t exist.


So now that we are pulling out of the Paris agreement, I guess this means the ozone layer can shine through and we will all burn to death.  all because dump wants to make money for himself and his friends.


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I try, I fail, I try, I fail, I decide.

lost it Tuesday when something happened and I didn’t get my way and words flew.  Let’s try something different.

We Met the Challenge!

For the third year, SCMA offered the Education Foundation a $1,000 Challenge Grant, and for the third year, we met it! With generous donations from the mediation community, we exceeded the Challenge, received donations from institutions as well as individuals, and received a $10,000 donation from an anonymous supporter! We are very grateful for this support and wanted to let everyone know about it.

We now have the flexibility to consider expanding the programs we supported last year and implementing a new program that we feel is unnoticed and unmet. We’re meeting soon to make those decisions, and I’ll keep you up-to-date.

You’ve read the comments from students about the importance of these programs. Know that without your support, they would not have the opportunity to, as one educator put it, “learn how to talk to each other.” And don’t we all need to learn that?

Thanks very much,


Maria Simpson, Ph.D.
SCMA-EF Board Chair

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